Post by Tammy (Twi) on Jul 25, 2008 11:15:50 GMT
Well I did not sleep much at all last night.... Up till 2am and woke at 6am.... I am tired stressed and totally breaking down. The board seems to be falling apart and the way it seems it is all my fault. I just some times wish I could walk off the face of this earth. Like every thing else in my life I seem to have screwed up once again. I don't know what to do at all any more. All I can think of is how I yelled at Kays. I can sleep and hardly eating anything. Like I once did I seem to be falling back into a DEEP depression. I had always come here to get away and relax and block out my screwed up fucking life I have outside the computer. Now it seems my computer life is falling apart along with the one true family I have. You guys are my life the reason I am still breathing and typing... With out that I feel lost and with out my family members. I am sorry Kay. Please come back I can't do this alone and you couldn't either that is why this happened... We did not talk about it much... And I am hurting more then any one knows. I broke down yesterday after you left and could not stop thinking about how bad I fucking screwed up.