like, ill and shit...

[Rae]

<sub>OMG i found a creme egg...

ANYWAY.

So yeh snacks that randomly live under my chair aside I thought I better let you know why i've been so absent recently.

Been having womanly pains quite badly, got to the point where i couldn't move. And it's all the time not just at certain bits of the month either. So i took my sorry arse to the doctor and since then there's been quite a bit of speculation as to whether I'm having this disease or that. They thought i had tumours and shit up in there and my mum was being well unhelpful by saying they were gonna send a BBC camera crew in there to have a look. Honestly...

I've been poked and prodded and violated more times than Paris Hilton.

So yus I've been into le hospital for tests, scans and all that jazz. I can tell you now ultrasound scans aren't fun, they fill you up with water and then they squeeze you, it's like the NHS want you to piss the bed.

So yah they found out what's wrong, and I have endomeitriosis which basically means bits of my lady parts are falling out. It's not nice. And although unpleasant it's mild and won't damage much.

But that's not all, becuase someone (Jesus, that bastard...) decided to give me twisted internal organs, and my uterus is folded and on the cock, pressing on my liver and causing not nice pains. Soooo they're expecting me back in for consultations and speculating what needs to be done. Probably surgery.

There's two options. One is an experimental procedure to re-attach the stupid origami frog womb to my intestines to hold it in place, the other is to just whip the thing out.

And it's messing with my head like you would not believe. I thought I was pregnant, turns out I might be losing everything.

So yah, I wanted to explain this to you so you get why I'm not on here much, and why when I am on here I'm either crying or horrible to you. I don't mean it, I'm just in a bad place right now. Gonna get things sorted then I'll be back with you, normal and good. For now though, I just want you all to know you're great, and tollerating my insanity for a few more months would be greatly appreciated.

Nuff respect.
Much loves.
xx</sub>

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[Tammy (Twi)]

Awww Rae, I hope they can fix it, if I could do more then pray for you I would. We love you and are here for you. Get better love.
~Tammy
(ps. If you ever need anything I am always here, or on DA if you need to message me. I wish you could call me but they would charge us which sucks. Succkyyy phone people. Any way love you sis! Yes you are like my sister and always will be!)

[Jo]

*hugs* So sorry to hear about this Rae. Just know you can always come here to vent and stuff. We miss you, hope you get everything sorted out ok. Thinking of you.